We deserve and owe it to one another, to be honest about messy motherhood.. this year has been the loneliest, and yet most fulfilling.
the tsunami of feelings and growth come crashing in... the repressed emotion, the things I denied to protect my physical dimension.. the authenticity I hid to serve others, the judgments I avoid.. inadequately feeling as I’ll never be able to rise from the ultimate void.. playing comparisons on the life they live with their father, full of physical abundance and freedom, to my tight knit schedule and small paychecks.
the feeling that trying to grow takes so much effort and I’m just ready for something to be easy...
I know the name of the game.
‘Be grateful. It could be worse.’ All that jazzz but sometimes that emotion doesn’t feel so accessible.
As we’ve entered the dark season & Mercury retrograde in sagittarius (My sun sign 😪).. my mind and body have come to a complete halt, with no motivation to work out or move my body. Only desires to lay & create .. rest and rejuvenate.
These little veggie nuggets keep me on my mf toes!! But remind me of that ultimate source of pure magic.. to love, love love love. Even when it hurts... 🌈♥️⚡️ Today’s goals: invoking and setting up an alter for a lovely Orisha that has synchronized in my daily rituals.. 💫🍊✨🍋💫👁👑
Library hangs & decorating for Christmas! 🎄☃️ #messymotherhood #motherhoodunplugged #singlemomma #align #2019weready #growthmindset #toddlerhood #youworthitboo #selfawareness #selflove #honestmotherhood #energyexchange