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Distorted and bent out shape I try and push through my day.
Every moment like mythological test that I have to surpass to gain praise from my inner selves; that seem to govern what I say what I do and even after all this time spent practicing realising my emotions and how they work no matter how erratic they are I still sit dazed and confused, sick to my stomach with raw emotion.
Realise that even though I speak about this like a vast wasteland of dark thoughts and emotions; this is what occurs in a split second.
Something for most normal people can rationalise, process and overcome.
I irrationally act, over process and regress.
This is what a bad day for me is like and I haven’t even begun to scratch the surface and inner workings myself but I think by voicing my thoughts to you all.
You can either relate to it or better understand more what it’s like with someone who suffers with Bipolar disorder.
#mentalhealthawareness #recognise #seeclearly #todaycanfuckoff #bipolar #bipolardisorder #emotions #freedomofspeech #photoedit

Which sucks when you work in a job that’s 99% dealing with people 😫
#todaycanfuckoff #cantdeal #anywherebuthere

This is what a mum of three who’s tried her best all day but despite her best efforts everything has been a flop. Maybe I’ll get some sleep tonight and tomorrow will be better. Tea, Oreos and TV is definitely in order! #nofiltermum #3under3 #todaycanfuckoff

Don't care about what the weather is doing today...I'm having chill day in my bedroom like a proper grown up 😐👌📸
#chill #restday #massivepains #fibromyalgia #sickofthisshit #deadgrownupme #headache #fuminwithlife #todaycanfuckoff #nike #hairup #gay #lesbian #uk #horizontlenappong #traa

First real smile of the day. Because dogs make even a horrible Friday and a rough few weeks better💕🐾💕🐾💕🐾 #todaycanfuckoff #lovemydog #rescuedogsofinstagram #lovemytriplets🏳️‍🌈🏁🏳️‍🌈🏁

My current mood 😫 #todaycanfuckoff #imdone

If i wernt so petrified of needles i might try botox cause this migraines a killer
#migraine #todaycanfuckoff

TFW your new, signed book comes in a WET box and is warped because of it. I need a do-over button.

Sunbathing #todaycanfuckoff

When it's been a fucking shit balls cunty bollocks of a day.... Wine #wine #drinking #rose #todaycanfuckoff #selfie #wineselfie #badcopingskills #dramaqueen #fml

TW: Post is human health related. Contains talk of panic attacks meltdowns, and self harm etc. I share my mental health probs in full detail bc I know there's a lot of pep who follow me who can relate. You're not alone!! I'm not looking for sympathy either!

Having a horrible morning. After a week of gi/gluten probs and a lot of weight loss my bad luck continues. At about 4AM I woke up horribly nauseous. I took a shower but that did nothing so I've been sitting outside for the past 2 hours dry heaving and having the most ridiculous panic attacks and hallucinations ever. Why and how the fuck does my brain even do this stuff? No idea!! I get to this point of no return where my panic and adrenaline builds so much that I feel like it has become a demon inside me. I usually will shake my head and say No, go away. I self harm to release built up adrenaline. I am lucky that my self harm is only in forms of pinching myself and punching my thighs or head. I feel no pain during these times and pain diversion to reduce my anxiety is nearly impossible, when I was 12 self harm stopped my panic attacks. Now it does nothing so at this point it's just a bad habit to release built up adrenaline. Doing this shit makes me frustrated, I know that not only do I feel crazy but I also look crazy. When I hit that max panic attack adrenaline point my mind tends to get lost and the suicidal thoughts take over. At this point I would rather die. Sometimes I get seizure type auras. Weird flashes of light, smells and noises bother me and I stare at things intently. My eyes look like something has possessed me. 2.5 hours later and I've finally started to calm down a bit but I already know this is not the end, really hoping music or video games can pull me through. Blogging or messaging people is usually my way out. It's hard when you live in the middle of nowhere and have no direct friends or people to visit you. Today's just not my day.
#todaycanfuckoff #notmyday #panicattacks #meltdowns #mentalhealth #glutenallergy #glutenfree #suicide #invisibleillness #spoonie #cervicalstenosis #neckproblems #sensoryissues #whatisnormal #sensoryoverload #anxiety #whatisnormal #thestruggleisreal #fml

I need overpriced American sugar and lots of hardcore coffee to sustain me today. #poptarts #allthecoffee #fruitforthekids #passmeanother #todaycanfuckoff

Having a fucking shit day. Seeing Hope later though so that'll make me feel better. #windir #1184 #blackmetal #beard #piercings #metalhead #todaycanfuckoff

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