Ugh I'm so annoyed that it feels like other people have so much power over me, words cut like a knife. Every word is like a physical blow,my chest hurts and my stomach is in knots, I loose all motivation like the winds been kicked out of me.
I hate that someone other than me has so much control over my emotions and how they can change my whole outlook on the day / life with just a few words.
I woke up more positive as I was going to focus on me and some things I need to do and get myself to this party but with just a few words all I want to do is go back to bed and ignore the world. I can't do this shit anymore. I keep building myself up for something or someone to just push it all over when I'm not looking. I feel like I live my life in this low dark place at the moment.
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