Sometimes the most heartbreaking time can be the part that comes after a loss; the emptiness and ever-present space where a child should be. And yet, there is hope.
This is Christine and Michael's story:
OUR SON JAMES, BRINGS US DOUBLE RAINBOWS
We found out that we were pregnant two days after my birthday. It was the most amazing gift we could have ever asked for or imagined. All our efforts, BBT charting, doctors appointments, our prayers, finally our first little miracle baby had been conceived!
Our pregnancy was full of happiness and excitement, we were anxious as the halfway mark was almost through. It was time for our nineteen week ultrasound that morning as we got prepared to see our little boy again on the ultrasound screen. He was perfect, healthy, waving hello and our hearts were so full. That’s at the same moment when we got the dreaded news that we were funneling and my cervix was 4cm dilated. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, only moments ago I had seen my perfect, healthy, sweet little boy moving around in my tummy. In that instant we were rushed into the emergency room faced with decisions no expectant Mother or Father could ever imagine they would need to make.
We had an incredible team of doctors and nurses and in their best efforts they tried to sustain the pregnancy for as long as possible. After three days of bedrest, my water broke and I just knew at that very moment I was going to lose my Son. After nine hours of labor I was finally able to sit up for the first time and as we mournfully looked to the left out my hospital window at that exact brief moment the most beautiful double rainbow appeared before our eyes and I could feel the soul of my sweet boy tell me he made it to Heaven and he was going to be okay.
I’ve seen a few double rainbows in this last year since losing our little James, the most special one was recently when my uncle handmade a beautiful bench for my Husband and I in his honor. The moment he unveiled the bench to us at his acreage a rain shower came out of nowhere and I looked behind me to see the most incredible double rainbow I have ever seen.
Christine & Michael