Have you ever been a part of this community? --
Part of my health journey definitely starts back way longer than I thought. I have had body image issues my whole life. But in high school I was just literally big boned, taller and had more muscle. --
In college I was lucky enough to not gain that freshmen 15, until I started partying and barely eating. My school did not have the best, healthy food in its cafeteria because it was such a small school but it was what I had and I didn't have extra money to go out to eat all the time. I loooooove mac and cheese and tator tots. I would eat a HUGE plate of them when they were offered. I ate it ALL!!!! Sometimes even going for a second helping. No veggies or fruits just pure nasty carbs. --
By my second year in college I was partying and drinking at least 5 days a week and I was gaining weight from all the sugar drinks and carbs I was ingesting. I was feeling bloated all the time. One or two times after drinking too much I ended up throwing up. It was less traumatic than I thought it was. IT WAS ACTUALLY EASY!!!!
So, I got the bad idea in my head that if I wanted to eat all that mac and cheese and drink whenever I wanted to that if I was able to throw up after I would lose weight but still be able to eat what I wanted and drink when I wanted. --
It took about 6-8 months for me to figure out being bulimic wasn't something that I could sustain. I started feeling weaker, more lethargic, dark circles under my eyes, and my hair was falling out.
This was the harshest I had ever been on my body all because of my negative body issues. It was bad, but it could have been a lot worse....I could have died. The picture on the left in green was just before the time I quit, but I just don't look well. And, the other pic is me now. I have so much more vibrance in my face. ..
Thanks for letting me share this with you and if anyone with this kind of condition ever wants support I am here.