Four years after that move alone to Northern Virginia, I’m married to a man after God’s heart, and we have a son, and soon a little girl. I did good chunk of school, immersed myself in coffee culture, then started my own design business so I’d be able to work from home with my babies. Even on days when I don’t feel like there’s movement, or that I’m going backwards, God is working so very deeply in my heart.
While before, I was praying hard where was God’s will for me to go, I’m now praying hard to be shown where He wants me to be planted.
And the answer is still as simple as what my pastor told me. By seeking after what He wants me to do, which He’s already outlined in His word… I’m in the life He’s called me to. I’m not outside of His plan, even if I’m not in the chapter I would like to skip to yet.
Being married, and being two people as one in relationship with the Lord, has caused my patience to be grown and stretched. No longer can I just go/do/decide alone. And with little ones, our decisions together have repercussions on our whole family’s future.
But we are definitely being stirred in our hearts. Here where we’re planted, and in many other places, there are people that need what we are called to do.
I think that uncertainty isn’t meant to cause anxiety, even though that’s what it used to do for me. I was so worried about making the wrong choice, going in the wrong direction. —
But with Andrew’s and my life being poured out in ministry, we need to be continually seeking the Lord in the middle of these decisions. Even when His answer is, “stay” or “not yet” or even “yes, it’s time”, and He’s beginning to reveal the next chapter in our story,
His word, and His will, is clear. Seeking His face, being after His heart, is the right direction.
Please read 1 Thessalonians 5:12-18... “Rejoice always,
give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”