Go a little deeper❤️
This round of treatment has been a roller coaster. I’ve got full functional use of my left side back, but I’ve also been sick as all hell and have had my moments of wondering if I’m strong enough to do this for six weeks. Physically I know my body is resilient and will make it through one way or another, but emotionally it’s draining and that’s forever the hardest part.
I know I can’t do this entirely on my own, and I know I need more help than I’m willing to admit to myself. But the struggle against feeling like a burden is a tough thing. The fear of loved ones giving too much and burning out has me second guessing asking for help, something that ends up hurting on both sides.
Yesterday I let that wall down, just a little, and was floored by how much care and compassion I was met with. A hint of remembering that I don’t need to carry this weight alone crept back in, and I let a tiny bit more of that wall back down.