Everyone wonders why I never open up or push people away. I don't open up because in reality no one really cares. Sometimes I get lucky with one person that seems like they do but all they say is "I don't know how to help" and then they stop asking because if that. It hurts more if you don't even bother to try. To me, it just looks like you're giving up on me which is what everyone that I've opened up to has done in the past. I push people away to protect myself from becoming attached so that when you do end up leaving, maybe it won't hurt as much. They said they'd always be here for me and the sad part is when I finally believed them they dropped me. So I apologize now if I hurt you by pushing you away. Understand that it's for the best. I'm saving you the trouble and saving me the heartache.
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