Bitterness // It's not always obvious who is bitter, but it is obvious who is not. 8 months ago, I was the most bitter woman alive and only those I opened up to about the situation knew. I was mad hurt this man ain't want me. Like..The audacity, ya know? Lol but not lol. I sincerely prayed to Christ to fix my heart before I did or said something stupid. Fast-forward 8 months and reading my old journal entries, I smile and shake my head at how naive I was. I let go of the pain 7 months ago and been working on my heart ever since. I had to think about the other person as much as I thought of myself. They deserve happiness, peace, joy, and love even if I'm not included in their definitions of those things.
It's painful not being wanted or not being someone's happy/peacful place. I can't lie, I shed a few tears most nights, but gradually with time the tears stopped shedding and a warmer heart began to grow in me. By the Grace of Jesus Christ, 8 months later.. I can say I'm completely free from bitterness and finally open to entertaining someone's *serious* son. 👀😘