"It wouldn't be wrong to terminate your pregnancy." ⠀
Four years ago today I heard those words.
There are days and dates you never forget. ⠀
July 23 is one of those dates. ⠀
Then I heard, "There are other ways to have a family" and "It would be hard for your husband to have to be a single parent". ⠀
I will never forget those words. ⠀
Or this date. ⠀
I knew all these things the doctor said to me and they already played in a loop in my head all the time. She had no idea how much these thoughts shook my already shaky confidence. That was not the kind of medical care I needed.
She threw me off my positivity game and made me doubt it all - but only temporarily. ⠀
I was 22.5 weeks pregnant; very aware that isn't considered viability. But I was oh-so attached to this little thing that I never dreamed was possible. I was already tentatively imagining showing her the world, camping, playing in the wilderness, swimming with turtles and planting gardens with her. ⠀
It took me a while to feel confident again but thanks to my family, friends, and better medical care as well as the constant kicks of my little magical girl letting me know she was a fighter, I made it another 12.5 weeks and got to meet the most amazing little human that I've ever known. ⠀
I won't forget that day but I will also never let anyone tell me I can't do something I have my heart set on and that I know I can accomplish. ⠀
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