Over the last couple of months I have noticed myself holding back, not being honest with myself about what I want and avoiding bold decisions.
Because I feel like none of the decisions I have made in the past few years have turned out the way they were supposed to. Quite frankly, I have felt sold short by God.
So, I decided I was done with the whole obedience thing. You know, “do this so you don’t get a spanking,” well my adult-self had converted that to “do this and you’ll get the blessing you want.” News flash, God DOES bless us, but rarely with the blessings we prescribe.
Understandably, I was tired of pouring my heart into things only to be with unmet expectations and plenty of embarrassment.
As I looked for something new, something that wouldn’t sell me short this is what I found (like in every email, book, and podcast for weeks)... Let go of expectations.
Letting go of expectations has looked like surrender: 1) Seeking the Lord diligently. 2) Making a decision that I believe glorifies God. 3) And investing my WHOLE heart into it - no strings attached.
It’s the “no strings attached” part that I’m still not good at, but it’s the “no strings attached” part that’s changing me, healing me, and not selling me short.
I’m learning to make this life-thing less about obeying and more about being. Being God’s dearly beloved daughter who loves laughing and surfing, being someone who knows how to talk to God and teach others to do the same, being a writer who loves to encourage and shows up to social media that way, and being a girl who can’t eat popcorn without making a mess!
It’s my prayer this week that you will be able to give and grow free from your own expectations. May you embrace this day as the day that the Lord has made and rejoice in it because it if His gift to you. You don’t have to make anything of it or meet any exceptions for it to be a good day - it already is. And you are, at THIS moment, a precious and wanted woman.