"But whatever I am, or have since become, I know now that slipperiness isn't all of it. I know now that a studied evasiveness has its own limitations, its own ways of inhibiting certain forms of happiness and pleasure. The pleasure of abiding. The pleasure of insistence, of persistence. The pleasures of ordinary devotion. The pleasure of recognizing that one may have to undergo the same realizations, write the same notes in the margin, return to the same themes in one's work, relearn the same emotional truths, write the same book over and over again--not because one is stupid or obstinate or incapable of change, but because such revisitations constitute a life."
I have a lot to say about this quote. First, how freeing, as a writer, to realize we might repeatedly return to the same themes and ideas in our work-- something that not only every writer does, but that allows us to evolve and change and grow!!! It's something I'm only just coming to terms with. I'm finding my themes. Second, if you've read Adler's Pitch Dark, doesn't this remind you of the passage that lists "The sins of..." (I will find this quote when I get home and type it out, because it is beautiful!) -- what a wonderful structure! I'm so into it. Third, I agree with the sentiment expressed about slipperiness inhibiting some joys of being defined. I feel that struggling to evade definition took up a lot of my teenage years (and because of it I fit into some very stereotypical image of teenage angst, obviously & ironically) and it was exhausting and futile. Nelson is probably describing a "slippery" identity a little more dignified than my teenage foolishness, but, ya know, I'm only 22 so most of what I connect with is rarely dignified. Finally, just finished the book and I'm already sure I need to revisit it, as I don't think it I understood it completely. If you wrote a review of it on your instagram let me know as I'm interested to read other people's thoughts.
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