Imposter Syndrome/Past Comes Back to Haunt You
WATCH OUT, BIG OL’ CAPTION COMING UP
Part of having depression is how much effect it has over your habitual thinking. Even with the help of medication and coping mechanisms and supportive friends, my brain can still flip back to default.
A default that tells me something is bound to go wrong, that someone doesn’t actually like you, that I don’t deserve praise and my work is awful or I didn’t really try. My brain craves cruelty because at some points it’s all it’s ever known and it means it can’t sneak up on me if it’s already anticipated it. But this familiarity almost literally breads contempt.
Healthier and happier, my biggest MH goal now is to change these damned Default Settings, because at some point they weren’t the default. This was learned and it can be un-learned.
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