Things I have learned about myself while dealing with my child's father:
*My complaint of his inconsistency shows how I am inconsistent with the promises I make to myself.
*Him asking for me to pay back money he offered as a gift to help me out, after feeling unappreciated shows how I too am an "Indian giver". I take back my love and affection when I feel unappreciated as well as become cold and distant.
*Me being angry about past events and the patterns that he has shown is my anger at myself and my same pattern of poor decision making.
*My need to speak up for myself the first time rather feelings will be hurt or not.
*I need to stand on my word.
*Me try to force him to stick to a schedule and trying to force cooperation is me yet again trying to control the situation. When I can only control myself.
*I give way too many chances after being disrespected.
*Self preservation is always first.
*My complaint about how he doesn't listen is a reflection of how I don't listen to my intuition.
*I have no real intention why dating or when I get into relationships. They are experiments and experiences I get into in haste.
*I don't enjoy monogamous relationships but in order for an open relationship to honestly work I need to get over my issues with control.
*I don't like others holding me accountable for my behavior when I'm angry because I feel my reaction is justified. Even though I leave others bald head and stripped naked.
*I don't have a backbone when it comes to sticking to my standards. #tellyourtruth #selfreflection