So today's had less tears and sweat... from me... and teds!! And more comments such as... stop fucking rocking him, 4 mins to go before food time, when can he sleep, surely you can let him sleep now (shortly followed by 'NO' in a voice that can only be paired with a death stare that will make hitler himself shiver), is he still asleep and don't worry I'm not killing him (to random bystander as I'm flipping teds on to his side shoving dummy in and pushing buggy/rocking it manically for the 3rdtime approaching his drive!) plus many more!!
I mean this is a crazy, slightly mentally exhausting time and the knowing that I'll no doubt be up god only knows how many times tonight, is giving me a new 'the fear' waiting for him to wake even when he's not making a sound!!! However, I am honestly starting to see a difference...so fingers crossed hitler routine succeeds for the second night running and no through the night feeds are needed...wish us look!!!