I have a confession to make and since this account is where I let out all my thoughts, feelings, and opinions, why not make a confession as well? So the very first time I came out was in late 2014. I had just started 8th grade. I came out as gay (I prefer the word gay over lesbian.) I was pretty confident when I came out but during freshman year I would look at guys (celebrities not guys at my school) and be like damn👅😍I wasn't really like this in 8th grade bc I was too caught up on this girl & also I went through this band phase and all the band members weren't attractive to me so I didn't think about guys much or at all for that matter. So back to freshman year...my band phase ended in the beginning of freshman year and I started to find other celebrities like Zayn & Cameron Dallas and I was like wow these guys are hot af but I pushed the thought away bc I was getting confused about my sexuality and I didn't really know what to tell people bc I already came out as gay. During sophomore year, I started getting more into Cameron Dallas, Paul Wesley, Ian Somerhalder, and now Jack Gilinsky and Grant Gustin and other guy celebs. And if you've read this far, you might be thinking that I'm bisexual but here's where it gets a little confusing...I wouldn't date a guy. I can't see myself in a relationship with a guy. I'm physically attracted to them like there's a lot guys that are very pleasing to look at but that's not it though. I'm also sexually attracted to guys. Like I'd be so down to give a guy a blowjob, hand job, and have penetrative sex (can't imagine why anybody would wanna get in bed with me but yeah there's that lol) I still don't know if I can identify as bisexual since I'm only physically & sexually attracted to guys not romantically...idk how to talk about this like if I say I'm bisexual people will think that I would date a guy but I wouldn't. And I don't wanna have to say "I like girls but I'm only physically and sexually attracted to guys." Like I feel like telling people that would be weird so idk what to identify as...now I understand 100% why some people don't like to label themselves because you never know when things will change.