A little hop and skip and it’s Day 19 of #thenovembertarot hosted by @lionharts.
XIX. REALITY CHECK: WHAT IS HOLDING ME BACK with @darkdaystarot
1. what I think is holding me back? seven of swords
seven of swords has been stalking me all month. across decks. across readings across questions and spreads.
A card of impulse and potentially deception. perhaps fooling oneself. perhaps a fear crawling around in the back of my mind that I am just fooling myself. making relationships, engaging with people on social media, developing some new client relationships. ‘Who do you think you’re fooling, Christine’ you can’t run away from cancer. maybe this fear crawling around in the back of my mind is holding me back from fully stepping in to life again.
2. what I can focus on instead? eight of cups
Well then there are all the feels. sorrow, anger, rage, depletion as well as support, love, giving and receiving, being in truth, letting it be messy and full and overflowing. With life, because in the end, it is life all of it. life is nothing if not transformation, often happening as we transition from one state of being to another, shedding, rebirthing. I just have a moment of experiencing it in a very compact way in a compressed period of time. And, well, that brings us to Time. I’ll leave that on the table
3. what will help my focus? The Hanged Man
Well my old friend, my companion. ‘Simply’ (continue) to let go, again and again. And I don’t blab this as some sort of spiritual bypass of release, receive, relax enlightenment is yours, rather I look at it and ask, what do I continue to choose? How do I choose to live this life? day in, day out. There are plenty of fucked up days; the days of Why? the days of What for? the days of Who cares? In the end though, at the end of most of those days, I can look in the mirror and remember that there is more here for me to both give and receive and this is part of the package. And then I remember that I will know, what only I can know; when it’s time to really let go. #tarotreadersofinstagram #tarotchallenge #tarotcommunity