#FootSoup anybody?? 👠🍲😷
This #DetoxFootBath picture from today is a good representation of what's been going on in my life the past few months.
Something inside me is shifting and I finally feel like I'm sorta able to talk about it... And at the same time I'm nervous to talk about this.
I really really dislike social media. Especially lately. However, if I didn't feel so compelled to meet people & share my story, I would've gone dark a long time ago. There's pressure to be perfect, division, ignorant comments, and people that I love who are posting some things that make my stomach sick.
I've also come up against a new monster in my life. It cripples me in ways that I would have never really thought possible. I've isolated myself on purpose and have fallen into the comparison trap while being really hard on myself for no reason. But the more I've opened up, the more I realize how "not alone" I truly am.
Finally being led into a season of rest after years of built up complex trauma and transitions, I'm realizing that I've never fully processed through the trauma "casserole" I've been handed.
All that to say, I still don't have this all figured out. I'm still fighting this #Anxiety and #Panic that comes and goes as it pleases. It has worn out it's welcome and I'm exhausted.
I never wanna portray perfection here. If you've seen "she's got it all together" through the life I've curated on Instagram, I'm sorry. I've rewritten this post over a few times unsure of how to address my #MentalHealth without glorifying the pain, but after a few weeks of listening to @imlauramiller and her #TalkingInCircles podcast, I'm inspired to be brave and share a part of me that I never wanted to accept. The stigma is outdated and the world NEEDS to address mental health.
So how does #FootSoup relate? Well, I'm detoxing rn. Detoxing wrong habits, mindsets, people who aren't good for me while becoming more mindful of what's going on inside me so I can love myself more gently than I've ever allowed myself. You don't always SEE what's going on inside, but until you detox , we'll never know how good we were truly meant to feel.