This phrase holds so much meaning.
In its simplest form, it represents a longing.
These words are a lyric from a song by our favorite band. We are musical people and so this in and of itself is significant. The song to which this lyric belongs also happens to be the very song that was playing as Michael and I swayed together for the first time as husband and wife six years ago.
The song depicts a longing between lovers - a need for union and togetherness. It sheds light on the simple beauty of being able to physically hold the one you love. The full lyric reads, "Love, we sleep apart for the last time - for the last time. I dreamed to hold you in my arms. ...wide awake, in my arms." This was the sentiment we both shared for many months prior to being married, and which was fulfilled in the celebration of our love. Singing those words in each other's ears that day brought with it a joy and anticipation. We had slept apart for the last time.
Five years later, those newlyweds weren't so newly wedded any longer. We had experienced many trials and hardships over those years, but we experienced them together. Hand in hand. In each other's arms, so to speak. That year we would experience another. A miscarriage. We would lose a baby we would never be able to physically hold in this world, but whom we would forever hold in our hearts.
One day, we will meet our sweet Melody Joy. The in-between... is the hardest part. The waiting. The longing for heaven. ...And we long for heaven in so many ways. We long for the reunion of our souls with the perfect Groom, and we long for everything to be made right in a celebration of His love.
But in the meantime - up until that very moment when every tear is wiped away, I will continue to feel that deep longing... "to hold you in my arms."