There's just a couple problems I've been seeing, as my friend so gently confirmed for me yesterday... Fear of Rejection, Fear of Releasing i.e. Control Freak. Speaking of Freaks, I'm probably psychotic, some sick part of me enjoys the fear, the anxiety, the tension, the agression... some sick part of me thinks its just playing. Craving intimacy because I don't trust people to play safely...Not to mention I hold myself back too often... See, Fear of Releasing. Fear of Realizing... Fear of Failing, Fear of Falling, Fear of Flying ✈
Some children who are abused, accept it, and begin to believe that they are bad and isolate to protect themselves from further judgement. Others recognize their abusers are wrong, and begin to seek out the bad in people as a form of preventive action; ie "they cant hurt me if I don't expect anything." Most times its a combination of both. But we dont have to protect ourselves from everybody... sooo I'm learning to respond differently.
AND today we are working on Self Confidence by Singing Outisde Publicly. Walking, Enjoying the Sunshine, Worshiping Ra. Summer Solstice Style.
Also, the first time I heard the radio edit I was like... "dafuq?! Why does this sound... this bitch empty! YEET!!" So now I've been obsessing trying to pinpoint exactly what the difference is... and I'm like omg I hope it's just not because of Headphones vs. Speakers. But lol aren't you glad I'm crazy? A Neurotypical wouldn't obsess over your music editing like that 😂😋🖕🏼 #summer #singing #starseeds #healing #heat #hades #sweaty #synesthesia #sequence #whenyourfriendisarealone #callsyouout #thefuckareyouevensaying #girlstop #lindalisten #youknowimright #lifelessons