It's Wednesday morning and I'm off to the gym.
These gym status messages are more often than not, a chronicling of my fitness journey but also a (hopefully) motivational to my future self and today is no exception.
Today I'd like to remind myself about what I affectionately call "the knowing". Yesterday, I had a discussion with one of the temps at my current place of work during which I recounted the story I have told countless times. The moment(s) I knew I was meant to be an actor, to be on stage. I, of course, talked about my high school theater teacher, Reyla (may she rest in peace), about my high school friend Elana. I too briefly touched on my experiences with the inimitable and seemingly immutable Vera Katz. I mentioned my hiatus from theater during which I took time to find (the rest of) myself. I told him of the Larrys, the Pauls, the Veronicas of the world. The Sues, the Cobys, the Jivons and Rikkis of the world, not to mention the Courtneys and Stevens of the world. The countless others who reminded me of what I already knew. The knowing that, among other things, I'm SUPPOSED to be an actor. I'm SUPPOSED to be a storyteller. In any event, as we continued our discussion (when we should have been working), as I "told him my story", I stored in my memory for later that I was moving him, touching him, inspiring him without even being on stage. He knew about "the knowing" also. What a lovely gift to "know" your purpose. But, as I work my way through this workout this morning, it occurs to me that what I failed to impart (that I'll rectify this morning), is that it is my belief that we all have MANY purposes in life. I'm not just supposed to be an actor. I'm SUPPOSED to be a lover, a role model to my brother, a sounding board for my mom. I'm SUPPOSED to be a shoulder to just be there when my loved one loses a parent, a resumé re-writer for that friend who's trying to change careers, the spark that lights the fire for the oh-so-fleeting person who comes in and out of my life for them to seek the knowing too. I'll not dwell on the dark side of the knowing (that's for another day) but for now, I'm reminding my future self about "the knowing". Don't forget.