The last time I posted here was the day before my surgery . Surgery went well, and partly because I had the two most amazing people with me. I’ll never forget the weirdness of it all 💕
Healing however, was a whole different beast . The recovery will always be more salient to me than the surgery itself. It was a minor surgery , but the experience has forced me to form a different relationship with my body. To begin to unlearn the belief that my body is only valuable when it’s productive and moving. While in the past , I wanted only to push this body to its breaking point , I actually want to be kind to it more often now. These thoughts still linger as unlearning these things take time. I’m *still* in recovery these days , despite going to more events . One week till I can dance again , and while some aspects of me won’t be fully back to normal for months, I couldn’t be happier .
A ... part of me was scared that I would regret all this when I woke up from surgery, or in the following weeks. This is what society expects will happen when trans people pursue medical transitioning and even aside from that, it *was* a big decision . But as I sit outside this Sunday , I couldn’t be happier with this, truly. Last night, as I was coming home from the most amazing art party (shoutout to Leah) , I was just overcome with love (as cheesy as that sounds). *This* is summer. Classes don’t start till a week from now , and while my new job is overwhelming and stressful , it’s work that truly motivates me. I actually want to work in my free time . Once June begins , everything will take over my life in a big way so I better enjoy this moment . (Pictured: “classic breakfast” pizza from Die Pie 7.5/10 )
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