So apart from to and from A&E if not left the house for a week.
Today I have to go to 2 appointments alone and I'm freaking out.
This uncertainty about what my life is is killing me...possibly be over later if he lets me know if he still wants me or not...if I'm worth keeping around and loving.
And even then maybe he still won't know.
When ever he does find out I'm going to need time to think after that... So many appointments coming up and work going down like we planned when we sat and planned how to make things more manageable for us both....however I can't do that if I'm here on my own and I need to more then ever as being left in limbo has made me so ill.
When I asked him the weekend before last weekend if he was sure he still wanted to be with me and he said yes then he left me 2 days later...i don't know what to think or belive anymore...how is one meeting going to fix this marriage when he's obviously been so deeply unhappy and living a miserable life and just smiling and pretending and not telling me...
Fml...i didn't want to write today and the first hour was ok now I'm just bla! 😣😣😣😣😣😣😣😣😣 #bpdcrisis #canthanddlethis #stuckinhell #wantmyhusbandback
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