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I'm just fine,
My mind whirlpools.
Like hell has took my plug.
Like I'm in a tempest.. Of horrid feeling,
Monsters of myth,
rip at my throat.
tears of anguish create rough seas
I feel like clothes are tightening around my raw form..
Walls are closing in on me.. But to you I'm fine
I'm over worked
Every excuse I give..
To show you,
I'm not weak or feeble
I shiver with the rage..
Craig you've fucked up again!
You're no good..
You're hardly anything anymore..
You are a whore..
Used and monstrously flawed.. I scream from wet bed sheets
Sweat poors from me
With out the need for exsise,
I expose myself foolishly
To your judging hand..
Knowing it not me
But this shit,
that my broke mind creates!
But to you im okay
I'm having a moment.. I'm just tired
Every excuse I give
To show you I'm not a freak I'm normal
I pace and vape, with all the power of a worm.
Work to distract me from thourghts.
Take home my shitty little carcass To cry!
write endless hippy philosophy.. Pretend I'm actually good at this shit!
When inside I just fucking coasting..
Roasting my self in the mirror
Becuse I'm not happy with me
I never am.. Place my war paint on,
Just after I wake to an empty bed
Of noting but self taught lies..
And inside.. Ive died.. But to you I'm just fine.. Craig Wallis ©