OH BODY BODY: Physique (dance & singing) update.
Guys, guess who came to visit? Just before date night so I'm sooooo freaking happy about that 😃😒TOM you effing bloody thing you.
I just want to touch on the power of the things we say. I'm not a naturally positive person. Actually I'm quite a grump. I'm pretty sure the human beans in my life that interact with me can testify, that yes, less so these days, but for all of my teens & most of my 20s I was a lil whinge bag. I felt entitled, hard done by, woe is me. (Why dint I have an acting job, why dint I have money, why was my boyfriend annoying, why wasn't I just born with a Victoria Secrets Models body. I hate my job, life is hard. It's all unfair😭)Cry me a river.
It was a painful trap that I dint know how to get out of. I dunno if I wanted to (see latest blog for those details) but I was constantly telling myself how much I hated my body that I had no other choice. It presented itself to me, thick, heavy, short, un shapely. Nothing like a Vicki secrets model. Nothing like that 16 yr old girl crush I saw around the pool in Falaraki. I said it was shit. N I had sort of trapped myself into believing it was. I said it constantly to myself & to others. Even during comp people would compliment ur hard work & I appreciated it. But I dint say out loud that I liked my bod. I probably moaned how tired it was. Probably cos of the stigma that u should "Love yoself girrrrl (But not too much)"
Recently a couple of people have mentioned my body, asked how I'm feeling how is training & I have been consciously expressing that am enjoying my body. & it feels like a switch has gone off. What's not to enjoy. It does most things I need it to. It can period (which means my hormones r intact) it can lift weights, run (so I feel fit) It can dance (so I'm obvs gonna be on #strictlycomedancing one day) but basically the energy that just vocalising can bring, is a massive tool we have to utilise. Even if u don't mean it. Say something enough & u might jus start believing it. So go enjoy ur bodies. Touch it (yeh I went thurrrrr) love it, respect it, feed it, move it. U create ur energy. U create what u see. #gocreate