I regretfully stopped asking why a long time ago. I betrayed a dear question, like one might a friend, in the frustration over never finding an answer where no answer could be had. I’m quite sure I will never put in order the mess that was my relationship with my mother, but I do know that to question, to want, to need, is necessary and comforts me. Like a mystery where only part of the plot is revealed, my mother was strong, teaching me that strong woman are fierce, thoughtful and are to be respected and loved. She also taught me, even if not intended, that reactions can be honest and that my expressions matter. In her own dysfunction, she taught me that broken is the truest part of this world and is not to be negated by those that rush to fix rather that to accept. I admired her, even from the distance she kept me, a distance I preferred. I loved her so—certainly more now than I did then. I saw my mother today, but she did not see me and I cried for a moment safely and lovingly for all the questions I still have and content in all the answers they may never bring.
Questions are needed more now than ever. My 10-day eCourse, “Why" starts on Monday, May 8th and ends Friday, May 19th. We will dive into why we need to search, why we need to photograph, why we need to express and hold onto that which is our own. Why we search for ourselves in those small seconds of what we capture. We’ll come together on Instagram and in a private FB group—which will give us a togetherness and support. I’ll be in both spaces to provide supportive feedback—I’m in it with you. The introductory cost for this eCourse is just $49.00. Link is below for more information about the eCourse.
All proceeds of this class will be going to help me continue my work here in Paris, witnessing those displaced and unseen by the world around. Their voices deserve to be heard and their experiences seen. Anything you can do to help is beyond appreciated—if interested, PM me please. I'm grateful for all of the help.
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