I have some issues with you.
You're reckless at 14! You've just come out of the most intense year of your life & you're acting like nothing happened. You're not asking for help that you actually need, being skinny doesn't make you happy & your living conditions are less than ideal, your fear of being a burden is your problem. You discover energy drinks & abuse them whenever you can.
You've reached your Sweet 16th, but you're not sure how much longer you can hold on. You'll finish school at last, but how I wish you did more with your GSCEs! You don't get the grades you think you'll get, leaving you with no choice but to spend a year doing a course you hate. You're also madly "in love" with a boy. You'll lose almost all your friends because he becomes your main priority. You are far too young to even be in a relationship.
At 18, this is probably where you're the most fragile. You're still with that boy & I don't know why! You should be out enjoying yourself, instead you spend your nights in with him & only him, waiting for him to fall asleep so you can finally let go of all the sadness you've not been able to release.
Its been two decades since you crashlanded here & you're doubting everything in your world. You're trying your hardest to grow but at a standstill. You finally end the relationship that's been holding you back in the October, but aren't you a stupid girl! You fall in to the comfort of unhealthy coping mechanism that luckily have not scarred me physically but I still see the damage you caused.
I forgive you though. You are young and you've helped shaped me into who I am today. You've made me stronger, wiser & gentler in this world. I have real goals and am excited for the future for the first in my life. Because of you, I know my self worth and I can keep working on myself.
I am forever in your debt for never giving up,