Being out of alignment has become a source of frustration for me.
My box story: I had to pick this up for my brother and drive it home after 4 days out of town. But as it was unfinished (out of alignment) the metal scratched the interior of my new car, and it blocked most of my rear view while driving causing some stress.
This box, just as I was today, was completely out of alignment but, given life circumstances, had to just skip the need of alignment to fulfill a task.
I have put so much pressure on myself to find alignment before action... and when I am out of alignment, I pull myself out to reach it. Today, that was not the goal; I wanted to get home asap and it didn't matter how I felt, so I just wanted to get home. As I was driving, I was beating myself up over the circumstances of my morning and getting frustrated over the fact that I couldn't figure out my source of stress. I kept asking, "why do I feel this way? Why am I so stressed?" And to my surprise, my intuition responded to me, "because you won't stop bugging yourself!" 💡 💡 💡
Being self aware has allowed my ego to believe that being in alignment is to feel good and to be happy. But that's not it! Alignment is to recognize the parts of life that cause different emotions, and to be understanding that life is perfectly imperfect, and that is OK!
This box, like myself, does not have to be "finished" or "perfect" to fulfill its purpose. It's only a problem if you make it one. I don't have to feel good all of the time, but I should recognize the emotions that come with many situations. And when they arise, there's no reason to question the reaction and irritate myself asking "why, why are you responding like this" it's just as bad as "why, why is this happening to me?" ______________________
Short story, long; I am going to continue to observe my emotional response to the circumstances of life. However, the key word is to observe, and not criticize, because I am my own worst critic but most importantly, I have the power of happiness within myself as well.