I feel at home in the forest. My brother and I, growing up in the suburbs, would find a little patch of forest in the neighbourhood and build the best forts. These forest hideaways would be my place to go to when I couldn't handle my home life. I didn't care about boys, makeup and clothes, like most girls my age. I'd rather climb into a ravine, find a cave and pretend I was Sam Gribley from My Side Of The Mountain. .
Nature has always been there for me. I am closer to the trees, the dirt, the rivers, the mountains and all the wild creatures than I am with my own family. I started running away at a young age and would always end up in a tent in the forest. I have gone on solo, month long hikes into the wilderness. I traveled through out the Western side of the Americas, hiking through forests, mountains, beaches and nature reserves all by myself. Before becoming a Mother, I was hard to track down and often off on some wilderness solo adventure. I have hiked the Grand Canyon, alone. I have trekked through Yellowstone, alone. I have slept on the beaches in California, alone. I have climbed into the Mt. Robson valley, alone. On a good day, I'm alone in the trees. .
People often ask me if I'm scared or lonely. Never, have I felt alone or scared of the forest, in all my 30+ years of forest roaming. I have many scary wild animal encounters, and times of serious injuries but never felt alone. .
People scare me. People make me feel alone. People are hurtful and hard to understand, very unpredictable and violent. I was not nurtured, in childhood by my guardians. I am a product of my environment, and my thoughts are a reflection of this. I have understanding and compassion for the hermits, the antisocial and misfits. The scary thing is, I found a place to gain strength, feel loved and protected. The forest was my home, a place I feel connected to, I trust. What about those that didn't find that place? My heart just aches for people that haven't found their place. It's completely unfair, but nothing is fair.... is it? Unfair that people can hurt each other so bad.