Homegirl at @shopbando showed us in insta-stories the emotional scale (1-10) illustrated with selfies, something her and her mother came up with as she grew up living bi-polar and manic. (I hope I named that correctly). I’ve never really understood what those words meant, though I have known people to be living with these struggles, until she shared. It also came just at the right time when I was feeling like a 3. I think we all feel those weird sad for no reason days, or happy highs just because the sun is shining just right. Comfortable for me is at a 7-something. .
After this last weekend of 3-back-to-back weddings plus a surprise proposal on Monday that had us all in tears. My days have been emotion overload to say the least. Some days I’m good at putting up an emotional shield, Ivan’s Mom would say it’s the Aquarius, but on wedding days I cannot. Everything is felt behind the camera, I do my best work when I’m feeling it all — the happy tears as Dad walks his little girl down the aisle to her soul mate, prickle my throat. Uncontrollable belly laughter as her best friend since childhood shares the most embarrassing memories with a room filled with people including Grandma.
Wedding photographers refer to the day after a wedding as a wedding hangover. Body, mind and soul is obliterated, no alcohol needed. I woke up on Tuesday feeling like I had risen from a 4 day bender.
I took a mental health day.
Woke up slow,
gave 15 minutes to mediation guided by @brocollete ,
I’ve been eating well,
spending the sun-time hours in nature.
I’m feeling really good and normal again, this is my face feeling mood 7.8. ☝🏻🖤