shitty. shitty. shitty. fuck. fuck. fuck life. || i want someone, romantically but i'm going to "leave it alone, you're good on your own". i have enough going on in my life, family & constant drug us to be in any kind of relationship that will bring someone else done. i hate people worrying about it. it seems fake, it'll be taken away once they get what they want & most of all, i don't deserve someone that cares/loves me. i'm a piece of shit that deserves to die. all i need is drugs to numb me, i don't need anyone/anything else.