I've got so much feedback on my story yesterday that I like to catch up on it 🙈 Spyro is one of my most important childhood memories which is giving me goosebumps and happiness. Probably because I mainly connect it with my sister. We used to play it on her PS1 when I was at her place. Then also a couple years later when I moved out and was with my ex-boyfriend. Waking up, missing school, just laying around in bed all day long living on junk food and energy drinks while playing games like Spyro and Zelda. I don't know why I'm telling you all of this personal stuff but these phases of my life are very important to me. In general I love to speak and remind myself about being in different stages once throughout the time. Whenever I feel stuck in a situation or daily life cycle which bores the hell out of me what actually happens right now, thinking about my past helps me to handle the moment better. I guess I'm just afraid that changes won't happen anymore. Life is just too beautiful to be in the same place forever. Everything bores me, yet makes me feeling super excited. My dreams are so high and the constant desire to follow them both pushes me but drowns me back into a deep hole as well.
I'm impatient, I know how short life truly is. I just want to make it to something special. But maybe I'm doing everything alright already. Inspiring people, living my passion for fashion, being able to see the little things, turning hate into positive energy and to see beauty even in dirt. I don't know what breaks my heart over and over again. I don't know what I miss. Maybe it is time? Always wanting more, addicted to the feeling of work and productivity. Addicted to help people while crying, wishing for more time as I don't have enough of it to give answers to everyone. I don't know how much time it will take to find an answer and solution to all of this but each moment thinking about it brings me one step closer. 💜