Day 20 - Humility
I remember doing a course for one of the chronic conditions I have, when a leader the left the room momentarily. When gone, a fellow 'student' began ranting "what does she know?" "Who does she think she is?" "She doesn't know anything about my health conditions!" "I'm never going to get better, I've accepted that + it is pointless me being here, there is nothing for me to learn that I don't already know!" The sad thing was, she didn't leave. She kept coming, smiling at the tutor + appearing to listen at times but when the tutor was gone, she'd rant about how she really knew better. This really made an impression upon me. How often do I respond to advice like this? Even if only secretly in my mind. There is a degree to which we know our bodies + our health best but I don't think we should ever shut ourselves off from the wisdom or insights that others can give if we are open to learning.
Humility is esteeming someone higher than ourselves. It's lifting someone higher, higher than our pride, our own knowledge, experiences, age or social status. Humility is saying "I'm willing to listen." It's being open to the possibility that we don't know all there is to know + better still, we get things wrong from time to time.
It is easy to become entrenched in your pain. So much so, you don't allow anyone in. You may have had doctors or specialists belittle or dismiss you. You may have had bad experiences with authority figures that has caused you to shy away or be aggressively protective against anyone telling you what to do. I get it, I do. But if we aren't willing to be open, we are shut off to SO much that could help us.
I set myself a goal last year to "listen to my elders" by that I mean, I wanted to humble myself + learn from others, in particular, those older + more experienced than myself. In our society where leaders are often corrupt + hypocrisy is found in most organisations, the temptation to go solo is strong. The truth is, if we could do it all ourselves, why are we are in mess we are in so often? It's because we need help + deep down we know it. Humility is asking for help, rather than suffering alone. Humility heals + helps me.🌻