Real life isn't a perfect moment captured on film, edited and summed up in a few words. Real life is messy and confusing and at times just a little bit tricky.
I made my yoga mat strap so I could take my @corkleaf yoga mat to @_evestudio_ which is an easy 5 minute walk away from my home/@thinkthornbury. The first time I got there I realised that they actually already have lovely yoga mats you can use. Bringing my own seemed like I was over complicating things. So my @middleaisle Macramé Yoga Strap has been holding my mat up off the floor because (as you can see in this photo) Sylvia thinks it looks very tasty, or at least like it would be enjoyable to chew.
I'm trying to develop new rituals in my life. They're centered around my health, art, relationships and connection to my community. The last 6 months have been frantic and all the good habits I developed went out the window. I was able to pay my car registration the other day, on the very last day it was able to be paid, and now I have to work on getting something in it repaired. I haven't driven it since April and I've felt a bit of a loss of independence. But paying for stock, developing my classes and building Think Thornbury has taken priority over my own needs.
Getting back into yoga has been something I've wanted to do but each time I've tried there has been a whole lot of baggage attached to doing something that is simply for myself. @miamuse_official taught a beautiful class this morning and I suddenly had the realisation that I had been denying myself the chance to be happy and take care of myself. I have all this emotional baggage and conflict planning my wedding that I'm punishing myself by not allowing myself to breathe and relax. The mind is a funny place.
I'm not ashamed to be who I am but it does weigh heavily on your mind when you're not a polished representation of what other people think you should be, or want, or need for their life.
What to focus on? My breath and being happy with my own thoughts. Back to work on my arch now. Each knot is a chance for good energy and trust building within myself.
More proof that we are all works in progress each day of our lives.
Much Love, Maggie May