So I spent 6hrs on the porch painting w/o any background noise.
Anndd Idk if you guys are like me, buutt I literally can't not have background noise at all times.
I get in the car - FIRST thing I do is put on music, at full volume.
I get home - music or TV show plays in the background.
I get to school - earbuds and music while I study.
I get to the gym - music bangin, bass pounding.
From my waking moment to the second I lay down to go to sleep, there is artificial sound bombarding my brain. And normally, I love it.
And while I LOVE it, like love love love love love it, and believe music truly is important and beautiful and can inspire and motivate, ...When was the last time I had Quiet?! This is the convo in my brain "I can't not have background noise! That's Borrrrriiinnggg..." And what's worse, I'll realize I'm alone! Oh no! 😱 Nothing to distract my mind, nothing to "keep me company"!!! Whatever will I do!? I'll just do. That's what... Instead of kinda half-assing everything I do 'cause it ALWAYS comes from a state of slight distraction, I will fully commit to whatever I am doing. Washing dishes, cooking, cleaning, creating. What a beautiful thing! Too, I surprisingly found that when there was nothing playing, I didn't have racing thoughts, I didn't have anxiety, I didn't have all this BS running through my mind, it just was. I was focused on painting that's all, easypeasy. And if a negative thought did arise, it was so so easy to say "get the hell outta here, I'm frickin busy, thanks for trying tho". Maybe we just need some quiet. Just some.. I ain't EVA givin up my Dimond Saints 😈🎶. But just some Quiet to BE once in a while. And Quiet to notice all the creepy sounds your house makes, or the sound of the wind tickling the trees, the sound of birds singing or even of ambulances and sirens miles away, neighbors talking and kids playing. To be in the world fully for a second and give your sweet brain a lil break. .
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