🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️🙆🏼♀️ 30 years old and I’m still learning how to express who I am deep down to my core.
I’m finally at a point in my life where I can piece together the past, and choose to grow and learn from anything and everything I’ve experienced. 🤷🏼♀️Isn’t it funny how we grow up, sometimes way too fast, and then we spend so much time cycling back to those younger years trying to pick out the pieces we need?!? 😳Fun fact???I have always felt like I could feel what other people were feeling. It’s extremely overwhelming. 💙Through experiences in my life, it made me feel sometimes like speaking up and out was just simply TOO MUCH.
Not only for others, but for myself too.
For me, It seems.... or feels.... that when I fully express my feelings in the raw they are extremely over powering. 🤦🏼♀️It’s equally a struggle to keep it all in.
That all being said, I feel like growing up I tried to master this absolute balance where I could speak my truth, be myself, but not TOO much.
It had me feeling like it was such a struggle to be who I was, and so frequently I felt that no one understood me, and that I was lost out in left field alone. 🙋🏼♀️For as long as I can remember I longed to feel connection, while also being able to be absolutely 110% authentically me.... full out ME.
Over the last few months I feel like I’ve had such an awakening inside. 💙💙💙 Now that I feel like I can accurately look up and over what I’ve utilized to cope in the past, it’s becoming super clear that I used so many things to tune out, tone down, and distract myself from being present with my true self.
It took me 30 years to fully realize that I have everything I need already inside of me, and not in the corny quoted way, but fully and genuinely... and now it’s time for me to finally start listening, and take action.
I’m moving into a season of immense growth, in the most real, raw, and vulnerable space I’ve ever personally known, and if feels amazing. ✨I feel SO alive.