“I am blooming from the wound where I once bled.” – Rune Lazuli
Last night was by far the most challenging night we've endured, I did not want to wake up. The demons had consumed me, taking me to a very dark place. I did not want to feel anything anymore. I wanted to sleep forever. Hubbypuff reminded me, the lotus grew out of mud, I am the lotus. I have several lotus flowers tattooed on me, symbolising the fighter in me. I fought through many challenges in my life and came out stronger.
So this morning, I happen to walk past our lotus pot in full bloom. The lotus is a reminder that in a word riddled with fear, we can stay loving inside and, one by one, open our petals to spread that peace into the world. Instantly I felt a sense of peace, and strength for today's challenges.
I went to my appointments and meetings, they were all positive and left me feeling assured that I am safe, I am in control. I am not at any fault. I can and will overcome this stage in my life.
I look forward to sharing the full story once this is over but for the time being, I am ok. There is light 💛
Let it bleed - Let it hurt - Let it heal - Let it go.