nearly missed #slowfashionoctober day 2's #ootd. there are two photos here (swipe to see me pre-make up, half outfit, not enough coffee...). the first is actually kinda blurry, and normally i would just skip it, but i'm using this month as an exercise in following through and showing up, even on the messy days. today was a messy day, or at least it was this morning. #Ferðaskór went live on #ravelry, and my anxiety decided to accompany it. like, gonna-puke-got-the-jitters-between-my-shoulder-blades anxiety. big launches always freak me out, but this was bigger than usual. i have this tendency of processing upsetting world events into vibrating at a higher energy level than i can control, which results in anxiety jitters and self-doubt and all the rest of that fun stuff. and there's a whole lot of upsetting things these days. i'm not really sure about how to help in a deeply meaningful and direct way, which is what my activist roots want desperately, and i know i can't afford to burn out because that's just more useless than helping in smaller ways. so i'm gonna noodle on it more and figure out how i can make my biz feel more useful in this area, and practice showing up in the meantime 🖤
my politics are so fucking important to me, and are a central pillar of my biz. i never want to run a biz that feels constrained to not representing me and the people i love - the witches, the queers, the nonconformists, the different bodies that say "fuck you" to the mainstream status quo while embracing those bodies that happen to fit into it through no fault of their own. knit design is so beautiful because it is for every body. no one gets to tell you that you can't rock that crop top you spent hours knitting stitch by stitch, or that those speckles don't look good wrapped around your neck in that elaborate lacy shawl. when i design for femmes, it's for femmes of all genders and gender expressions. if you need to modify a pattern so it makes you feel totally gorgeous, do it! and then share it with me so i can gush over how fabulous you look. please don't ever stop making clothes for your beautiful bodies 🖤
check the first comment for details about what i wore today!