You and I are made of stardust. 🌙🖤✨
This weekend I’ve been cleaning my room, something that is always really HARD for me. .
CW: Anxiety, mental health struggles
So, I post a lot about my struggles with mental health and anxiety related stuff.
One of the most prevalent manifestations/issues I see with my anxiety is refusing to get organized when it comes to physical space. Like never being able to see my bedroom floor and my car being a shit show. My purse is an archaeological catalogue of my life.
Y’all, the Container Store makes me want to breathe into a paper bag.
This last year I’ve been able to combat (intentional word choice there) my car being messy, by cleaning it out when I fill my tank on a weekly basis and blasting music/vacuuming it out on weekend nights.
BUT my bedroom has Always. Been. A. Catastrophic. Mess.
Like i have this HUGE AMOUNT of resistance when it comes to having a clean and organized space. Part of this is because it feels so daunting, like the emotional and physical and mental energy it will take to get organized is TOO FUCKING MUCH. So I ignore it, it grows, etc. But then, there’s also the shame component of being almost 27 and my living space looking like I’m 13. .
This doesn’t have a resolution, like, “I read ‘The Art of Tidying Up’ and it CHANGED MY LIFE AND IM SO ORGANIZED AND A #MINIMALIST. ANXIETY == CURED.” Mostly, I wanted to create space to talk about how anxiety manifests. And that simple adult things can be super challenging for people like me, who are #KillingIt in other areas of our lives. 💕💕