A life of more YES! That's what I'm working on now. Redeeming all those things that were taken away.
My little ones may not realize how I different I am now because they didn't know me 10 years ago. But when they get a glimpse of the old me I feel like a superhero. They are so surprised that mommy is running, riding a bike, dancing in the car or doing cartwheels.😳 That's how bad it got. And it makes me want to cry. 😢
The most I ever felt like myself was with my eldest daughter. She has known me most of my life. The REAL me. She sees. And she would do things with me that would bring me back, if only for a little while.
But now is a new time. Time for redemption. She can't do it for me anymore. So when my 7 year old says, "PLEASE, mommy, can we finally go to the skate park today?" I say yes. YES!
Nevermind how I feel. Feelings,come and go. Nevermind that it's chilly out and the skate park is right of the ocean. Time is of the essence and I don't want to waste any more of it.