I just woke up to this news. It’s heartbreaking. I loved watching his shows for the past 10yrs...
Let’s talk about Mental illness. Mental illness is no joke & I understand this all too well. In my past, I’ve attempted suicide. If you know my past, you know it’s not pretty, lots of childhood abuse & it continued as an adult.
I’ve tried multiple times but I only got close once. I consumed a bunch of pills mixed with alcohol. My friends found me, I was unresponsive. I was there, but I wasn’t there. I was 18. Paramedics came, pumped my stomach in the back of an ambulance, it was a horrible experience. I was put under mental health watch for several days in a special (locked) wing of the hospital. It was there, that I realized that I wasn’t crazy. It was there, that I decided that I wanted to live.
Even though I decided to live, I still wasn’t happy. Terrible things were still happening to me as an adult. Which later lead down a path of self hatred, drug abuse & self mutilation.
It’s taken me a LONG WAY to get to where I am now. Happy with myself & (relatively) happy with life.
It’s heartbreaking to hear of people Still hurting, still wanting to leave this existence. My heart goes out to Anthony’s family, I couldn’t imagine what they’re going through right now.
If you Ever need help, please do Not be afraid to ask for it. Going to counseling does Not make you weak. Asking for help does Not make you weak. You ARE worth fighting for! Please do not give up hope. Start by opening a dialogue with a counselor. Please get help. & if you don’t know who to turn to, my DM is always open. 🙏🏽
I’m still in shock about this news. So many people have left us too soon. From friends to those we have never met. It’s been plaguing people all over the world. Please, if someone is asking for help, please do not brush them aside, you may be their last hope. Their last call before doing something horrible. Again, my heart goes out to Tony’s family. No family should have their hearts broken like this.
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