The more I #heal the more I'm embracing #pink 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 #rosequartz #crystaltherapy My face would scrunch up hard if you suggested pink in any shade to me. Prejudice against a color & shit 😂😂 Aight, now that I got that #randomness out of my system, just wanted to express my #gratitude to the #MostHigh in this & every moment (consciously & unconsciously). I'm actually at the point of being able to be grateful for & despite my #health disorders. #Thankful while in severe pain is an #amazing feat for this little #Soul right here. The resentment, frustrated feelings, anger, victimization I've held onto my entire #life are slowly healing. It's an interesting time in #mylife..This #mindshift that's happening.. Breathing exercises, #crystal, & #Reiki #healing, herbal tea, #water bottle...Basically, any & everything I can do to not take pain meds cuz my body is jacked. 😏 Strong pain pills help numb the brain & body to the pain until the #SickleCell #crisis decides to be over, but tear down the body at the same time. Taking them for 37 years tears down this body & if I can deal with it on my own I will always choose to.
#SickleCellWarriors make that difficult #life disrupting decision every day. Can I handle this on my own or do I have to take my ass to the ER...AGAIN? And deal with sitting up in excruciating pain, wait for hours for help in excruciating pain..rocking, crying, & shit...Now, I'm like a monk-- At least, I really try to be--Breathing, not saying anything cuz all that crying and stress only makes the "crying out to God" pain worse. Hurts to move. People with #chronic illnesses become experts in the #medical field...Professional Patients lol smh and I'm thankful nonetheless.
My babe just handed me a bowl of yummy sauteed #vegetables & I'm grateful: red (purple) cabbage & onion, orange green & yellow peppers, greens & apple all coconut oil infused #Slammin & exactly what I needed. He always apologizes with food 😂😂😂. This time, he also gave me flowers which is weird for me cuz I've never been that girl. I was the girl who was good with a Snickers 🤣🤣🤣 #Food isn't just the way to a man's #heart! I am such a greedy #grateful weirdo #LOL!