*TESTIMONY TUESDAY* When I was sixteen I "accepted Jesus into my heart". At the time I didn’t understand what it meant to be saved, how to truly seek God and live an authentic, Christ-centered life. I’ve lived my whole life convinced that I knew Jesus simply because I grew up in a Christian home and went to church on Sundays. I used to get annoyed from people asking me when I will take the next step and get baptized. I always felt like it was unnecessary for the time and I wasn't ready until I'd be “Godly Perfect” first . Getting baptized meant for me losing everything I love and surrendering to a new life that isn't as exciting, and I wasn't quite ready to do so. It wasn’t until 3 years ago I really laid down my life, with real understanding. God has taken His time with me in certain things. I have learned the hard way. I'm not claiming to be perfect today, my flaws are all too visible; but I understood that God believes I'm worth it and I don't think I know it all. I submit to my confusion, asking Him humbly to be taught. It took lessons learned, burning tears, deep wounds, lonely aches, wasted years, broken dreams and promises, choices that led to shame and a love that never came. I had to learn that my efforts to redeem myself brought to fruition only "vanity and vexation". But with the Lord as my source of strength and wisdom, I like a tree am firmly planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in its season, and in whatever I do I prosper (Psalm 1:3). And even when I felt alone He was there all along, protecting me in His perfect love and teaching me while my heart was aflame to humbly wait and call on His name. It’s true that I gave up some things, but it’s not the fun. I gave up my sin, my self-destructive behavior, and my ignorance of God. I no longer live for myself but for the One who died for me. Truth is, I actually found true joy and lasting peace, hope and contentment. So I made a vow to serve and glorify God for the rest of my life. I’ll never forget the joy that bubbled in my heart as I took the decision to follow Christ. My life will never be the same ever again because I have decided to follow Jesus! No turning back, no turning back.