It's so weird to see these old pictures of me because this was when I first started playing with makeup and even though I wasn't amazing at it, I felt so powerful and beautiful just being able to change my outer appearance to what I felt on the inside. When I first started I only wore makeup inside my room. I would lock my self for hours and hours inside my room every single day and I had a drawer in my desk that I would keep my makeup in. It was a secret I kept from my family and friends for years until one day I just stopped caring. Till this day I still don't express my self as much as I wish I could but with time I will eventually get there. I'm opening up to who ever is reading this just so you know I am just like everyone else and although I only show the glamorous side of my life I do deal with struggles.