#realpost ✋🏾 6weeks out tomorrow, this prep has been one of my hardest. I've struggled so much mentally and trusting the process has been extremely hard for me. Started a new job this year, finally feeling like I've found a work place I love! So tired of all the doctor check in's, blood work seems to never end and treatment is a bitch. Waking up every morning at 5:30/6am has actually been easy for me as I've never been a "sleeping in kind of person". Mentally I'm drained. Some days I wish I could grow wings just so I could fly away from everything. My biggest fear is disappointing myself and everyone else. I have to admit some days I feel a little bit lost as a person. I feel like my life needs some kind of a change... I just don't know what that is yet.