I've been seeing the #GWPLMeAlsoMe posts and the concept of being "sexy" alone side my strength crosses my mind everyday. Before I started lifting and my body started changing, I had an idea of what made me feel "sexy". About 7 years ago, I went on a crazy low carb diet, lost 100 pounds and lost everything about my body that made me feel "sexy". At that point, I no longer filled out my curves, I barely recognized my face, and the idea of being sexy was directly related to my body weight and size. The problem was, that did not make me happy!
Now that I'm more focused on what my body can do rather than what it looks like, my translation of what makes me feel sexy has been blended with what makes me happy. Most of the time, I go through life with a functional purpose. I ask myself if my body does what I want it to do? Is it built for the things I want to accomplish and the question of "do I feel beautiful" rarely crosses my mind anymore.
The reason why is because the self-doubts associated with my sensuality turned into confidence by means of functionality. I love how my body has transformed in the process of gaining strength. I am the same person showing off my delts and traps in a sports bra as I am deadlifting 600 pounds... I am still the same person when I dress business casual for work, wear racer back shirts, or hide in sweat pants and a big hoodie. I am still the same girl no matter what I wear or what my body looks like. I am a strong woman, a social justice warrior, and advocate for self-love and strength. I am Sam no matter where I go, how I dress, or how much I lift. I am me, but also sexy, but also strong, but also fat, but also goofy, but also giving, but also vulnerable.
There is no way to sum up the entirety of my existence. I am simply Samantha both on and off the platform, both in competition and at home. I feel "sexy" knowing I am exactly who I want to be, my life has direction and purpose. I have learned to focus on the positive, laugh at the negative, and take joy in the process.
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