[Edit] ON THE VALIDITY OF THE SELFIE AS A FORM OF EXPRESSION, Pt 1:
I've been doing a lot of contouring practice lately (shout-out to @will__sin for teaching me!) and a lot of fashion. Taking /so many/ selfies. Celebrating my existence, how I appear to myself and the world.
AFAB/femme bodies are hyper sexualized 24/7. Every time I want to post something I face that fearful but legitimate voice in my head reminding me how some people will see this: a call for sexual attention.
Well, newsflash: people (including me) can look amazing, do their makeup, wear what they want, all for their own damn enjoyment and aesthetic experience. If the result is attractive to you, that's rad, but it's not /for you/. If you imagine it is, perhaps you're trapped in a primary narcissism that allows you to subject other living beings' mere appearance to the whims of your desire. Perhaps you're used to being the Subject to whom all consumption is marketed. The white able-bodied straight cis male (or female honestly). Due to SESTA/FOSTA, social media companies are cracking down on displays of flesh. So anything that shows my chest on Instagram would be considered "against community standards" and be flagged for removal.
No one asked to be given titties, yet the market rules it's a sin to have them, and any display for the body is a sexual display.
Oh, and if you actually want to display yourself sexually, if you need money and decide to market the body you own, the body that has already always been sexualized - you're disgusting, immoral, an abomination, a criminal, unclean.
FUCK. THAT. NOISE.
As I address my own internalized bullshit, I grow more and more salty about all the ways dominant culture controls our bodily manifestation.
How any enjoyment and celebration of my own existence is ruled "vain" or sexualized without my consent.
It's even more frustrating because I don't want *attention* from straight dudes or really anyone (if you do that's fine!), I want to share joy and beauty, bitch. I'm a goddamn artist. I want to serve y'all L O O K S.
But it's also more than that.
#sestafosta #sexworkisrealwork #mytransbody