#tbt Oct 2013. 47 years young.
Ten things this girl did wrong to look like this:
1️⃣She was addicted to fitness purely to fuel her obsession to be skinny.
2️⃣She had no knowledge or care for the nutritional value of food and (barely) ate to maintain being skinny.
3️⃣She was obsessed with her aging skin and had multiple treatments, injections and expensive creams to fight every wrinkle & sun damage.
4️⃣She was addicted to shopping, watching TV and social media consumed by comparisonitis.
5️⃣She partied hard and was drunk or stoned multiple times a week to escape herself and avoid life.
6️⃣She gave her body away cheaply.
7️⃣She did double sessions at the gym on Mondays as punishment for weekend binging.
8️⃣She was abrupt, moody, emotional, unpredictable, rude.
9️⃣She self-medicated with pain killers to sleep and block out the pain.
🔟She hated herself, her body and her life.
Although I am 12 months into bodybuilding in this photo and some of these points were diminishing I am still no where near recovered. I got drunk during this shoot, drove home... and continued drinking to pass out stage later that night. Isn't it every girls dream to look like this? do a shoot at Bondi beach and then we live happily ever after....? So where was my dream life? And why wasn't I happy? Clearly there must be something seriously wrong with me!!!! It's laughable to me now that I thought this way but it was VERY real for me at the time.
It takes me another 3 years to get over my demons and declare myself recovered. And here we are happier than I have ever been!!!! 😁