It’s so much more than waking up and working out. It’s how you feel inside. It’s how your #smile comes through when you take a picture. It’s the break through of your thoughts. The way you deal with your #anxiety. The way you wake up and tackle your day instead of letting #depression overwhelm you. .
Almost three years ago, the picture on the left. You know that “forced” smile because you are being asked to take a photo? Yep l, that was me. I wanted to be here as much as my daughter. I was two weeks post pardum putting together a birthday party, trying to hold in how sad I was my husband was going back to Saudi and trying to figure out how the hell I was going to manage a two year old and new born. I hated my body, I hated looking at myself. I was new to dealing with not one, but two autoimmune diseases, my parents and I were not on speaking terms and I was doing life the best I could for everyone else. .
When I stopped living for everyone else and started living for me a little bit, the #mom, #wife, #daughter, #sister and friend that I used to be finally started showing through again. It’s been a long road and there are days I still have my battles. I pretty much hit rock bottom a couple month ago and looked in the mirror and said , “get your shit together and live your best life”. Something just clicked. I started to wake up not complaining. I’m making an effort every day to not sweat the small stuff. I am learning to roll with the punch and know not every day will be perfect, but I can find something good in every day. I look at myself every day and every day I’m learning to #embrace my flaws and work hard to be where I want to be. You don't always have to love waking up and working out, and you just might get sick of my post, but these programs changed my self image 2.5 years and that is something that I have struggled with my WHOLE LIFE... my smile is 100% real and I am confident outside and in. I’m working on personally developing me inside as well and learning to not be so hard on myself. (Continued in comments)