This is what we called it as 'Selfish'. When someone love you but expect you to do everything for thm, tht is not love. That is called ownself obsession. You gained everything from others but in return you gv thm shit. You expect people to show fidelity, love, concern,care and etc towards you but you can be the other way round..*wooww 👏👏*. How many hearts, trusts, love, loyalties have you broke into pieces? Why when you did shit to others, you didn't realize but when they started to do shit to you, lots of drama as if you are a saint. Undoubtedly, people do mistakes but it's a continuous mistakes thn you should know where you stand in people's eyes. No one going to forgive or accept you because it's not that you realize your mistakes but you twisted it to show it wasn't your mistakes. People are not blind or deaf to listen to your scrap stories and if at all they believed you thn you are a good narrator. You don't deserve to be loved coz you didn't value it when you had it and if you have someone to love you, it will nvr be enough bcoz you are too greedy for it! Your term of love is not by being passionate, caring or whatever so but money and expect it from others to get you a lavish lifestyle even though you are not one of it's kind! Don't be so arrogant and show off to people by acting you are saint without realizing all the mistakes you have done!
A real person who regrets it's mistakes will try to improve themselves and being as humble and kind as they can and keep asking for forgiveness from God!