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This is little Meghan, around 9 years old. Loving animals, posing, and acting like a model with my moody face on because It’s What Models Do! Innocent and happy and adventurous and trusting. Never would you look at this little girl and say, “She deserved it” or “She asked for it” if a crime was committed against her. So what’s changed? In photo number 7, I am 15 years old. The night after this photo was taken, I was sexually assaulted at a youth camp. In photo number 8, a month later I was raped at an after party. I am still the little girl in those first few photos, just with some more years of life. How did I ever deserve to be told that I deserved it and that I asked for it? How did I ever deserve to not be believed and to be shunned by people who think they knew what happened better than I did? I didn’t. I deserve that. That little girl didn’t deserve that.
When 13 Reasons Why came out, both Season 1 and Season 2, I was relieved. Finally, stories similar to mine were being talked about through the stories of Hannah and Jessica. Finally, people were understanding that sexual assault and rape is more common than they think. That consent is ONLY a yes, not a lack of no.
Photo number 9, is me now. Seven years on from the first assault and four years on from the second, and this photo was taken not even half an hour before a complete breakdown because of my traumas. I was so angry. Angry at the abusers, angry the people who knew who didn’t care, angry at the human race. But for once, I wasn’t angry at myself. I was angry FOR myself.
Today, I choose self love. “Self love is the single greatest act of defiance” - (@emmasimkin__)and I choose to fight for myself.
I hope that you wonderful and brave survivors, and the survivors that are yet to come, are able to get all the love and support that you need and deserve. You all inspire me. Here’s to all the warriors that have fought in silence. I hear you, I believe you, and you are so loved 💗

I don't know what to do cause my whole damn life is going to be a misery.. And I can do nothing to make it stop.

cannot post this often enough. gentle reminder to reach out to people. even your strong friends who are always there for you when you need them. you never know when they may need someone even if they dont tell you they need help. i hardly ever tell anyone i need help because i feel i'll bother them but so many times an unexpected sweet, loving message has saved me. not necassarily from attempting to kill myself but definetly from hurting myself. call or text your friends, family, and loved ones. reach out. you never know who you might be saving!
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Depression
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With fighting the depression I went through some phases. Like this beautiful caterpillar which eventually turns into a beautiful butterfly 🦋
I denied it, I was sad, then I got mad. So mad... started to isolate myself from everyone. Now I’m in a phase that I say fuck you towards the depression and try to fight it. Only like that you can turn into a beautiful butterfly, in this case a yellow swallowtail (^koninginnenpage).
Fighting will cost a very big amount of energy and you’ll be at start not be able to win the fight every day.
Talking helps, talk to your loved ones, or go in therapy or talk about it on a forum.
Your not crazy but was too long to strong 🌸
You can do this!
Your not crazy, worldwide there are several depression awareness programmes which tell you, that your not alone, also your not crazy💚
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Be who you are and say or do what you think. Those who matter don’t care. Those who care DON’T matter 🌹
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Sometimes... I get caught up in my own problems. I know it can be annoying to those I talk to online because it seems like that's all I do. That's because it is. I don't have anyone I can go to in person with some of the things I'm feeling and thinking. Though I've realized... I just need to bury it. Keep it hidden. My actions affect others. Just head down, mouth shut.
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So I have another account about recovery. I have certain people on it that can’t know that I relapsed, so I decided to make another account so I don’t have to hide it anymore. DM me if you want my other account #failedrecovery #recovery #selfharmrecovery #selfharm #selfharmmm #selfharn #depression #depressed #anxiety #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #suicidalteen

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